I
don't take port in what people say or think about me but when it comes
to her; to the people I love and care for, everything starts to matter.
It all started when I was 10. Growing up finally brave enough to speak
up my mind; to fend for myself. Unfortunately in the world I live in,
silence is all they'd listen to and what they say is what I have to bear
with and obey to.
One
thing I know for sure about myself; as sure as knowing that the sun
rises from east and sets to west - I've never been the good kid. Well
looks are deceiving. I'm that manipulative little spoiled brat. That
troublemaker; that nuisance; never the grateful child, never the
obedient student, never that good influence for a friend.
Raised
by strict parents and guess where it got them - here's the verdict : a
child like me. I used to be the good kid. They took me for granted. I
told the truth but got none back and as I grew up I start rebelling. Who
can I blame if not myself? They made me but, it was my choice. I'm no
big problem, really. Even so, you know what they say - It's the small things that get to you. I am the worst part of good and one of the best part of a wreck.
If
it's true what they say of how the things people spill out at their
moment of rage are the things they've been keeping inside, then my
parents deserve a better child. No matter how hard I try I end up the
same way. I don't wish to be dead, I wish to never be born. To never
exist better yet. Never asked for them to make me, never wanted to be a
burden. Without them there is no me, I get it, a lot. Without me one
burden would be lifted away from their shoulders. see?
It's not being ungrateful, its serious shit. Day by day I drag them more to hell, feeling guilty about it but still going on with it. Is this the child you want? Is this what you had hoped for? It's clear now.
TELL ME NOW, WHOSE FAULT IS IT, AGAIN?
yours truly, riri.
It's not being ungrateful, its serious shit. Day by day I drag them more to hell, feeling guilty about it but still going on with it. Is this the child you want? Is this what you had hoped for? It's clear now.
TELL ME NOW, WHOSE FAULT IS IT, AGAIN?
yours truly, riri.
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