It
gets lonely don't you think? "Friends" funny shit. They're everywhere.
Fake friends, so-called friends, true friends maybe. But I don't live
life for commitment on what I don't know if is even real. I take the
risk of trying but not trusting. See I've screwed it up. I don't keep in
touch with people I know. Just because I'm their friend doesn't mean
they are mine or well vice versa.
Come in whenever you want, leave when you feel like it. That's how they
roll. They don't give a shit. They don't know you. They don't want to.
They're just phases to me. I put no hopes on them. What they say or
think of me doesn't matter, it shouldn't matter. I mean really what do
they know? yeah, exactly. Probably nothing. Don't let people tell you how
to live your life.
I
don't mind really. It's no one's fault but my own. I chose being this
way. I find happiness in all this devastation. I find peace in solitude.
I see the beauty in the beast. Maybe one day,just maybe it'll change.
Maybe this will change. Maybe I will change.
Now I'm just holding on to what I have. I'm just appreciating (or at least
trying to), the ones who have stayed, who never left. I'm trying to get
my head straight once again. Clearing my path,going back on track.
Have
you ever sit and wonder why the hell do you even give a shit? I'm
flying you see. I'm way out of my mind but my feet is still touching the
ground. Wasting my time,wasting my life on nothing at all. What's up
with that? And you know what, screw what anyone else thinks. I'll laugh
when I feel like it. I'll jump, I'll shout just 'cause I feel like it.
I'll dress how ever I want to. I'll say what I feel, I'm going to do me. Eyes on
me, mouth open, judge what you see, you don't know me. Bullshit I don't
buy, no I'm not gonna cry.
yours truly, riri.
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