time's up, i've woke up.

No pretty faces, living as if everyone sees us from the moment we open our front cameras.
Lets get lost in this other kind of reflection.

I swear you know better.

You used to want to be alone and feel it all. Some days imagining having someone else with you, one who feels the same. You'd lay in bed alone with the music loud and curtains close, eyes slightly shut you want it dark yet warm. Not too hot, can't quite stand the cold either. There comes fingers intertwining with yours, you look to your side and he smiles. Falls this calming silence, enough for a lifetime- time stops and nothing else matters. As if everything freezes as you get caught up with the moment again. It feels wonderful doesn't it now? You thought hold on, not yet, don't go, stay for a little while. Because even then, even when it was all in your head you knew the time would come when everyone, anyone at all has to and for those few seconds left before either one of you broke the silence, you wanted to drown in it, savouring every millisecond, grasping whatever of it you can, how it was, what it was yknow, just in case you needed to remember, if you ever wished to.

You never want to anymore that I've learned, but you do anyway knowing better than your old self how time flies and things fade; that people come and might not always stay. Each time it gets teary but god you loved, you still love every moment of everything when it happens knowing each time it could be gone the moment you put your guard down. Everything's good if you take it that way. 

Even on the worst days, there's always something to be grateful for and it's amazing how we always go back to where we begin as if every ending sends us back to a new start. We get chances over and over again, what a shame to become completely oblivious to it. There's nothing bad about what's been going on despite everything that is. You know how it works, how it will come to be. You know you better than anyone else.

You've always been there.

-riri-