afterparty.

I thought God was supposed to take everything back by now.

And she cried the same way she did the second time like the first only more violently this time. I couldn't help in any means. I only stared. A blur. It wasn't much different from what it was until she let her thoughts in. I wanted God to save her but she doesn't even know Him. So I let it be. I let her sink.

She said look away, it wasn't her intention to grab any attention. It isn't sympathy she needs, there's no space for empathy, stay selfish, leave her be. I would refuse if it would make any difference but she wanted to go back more than I could ever make her believe it would be better here. Sooner or later.

Then she vanished.

-riri-