i miss the old you & the old me.

Nobody said it was easy, no one ever said that it would be this hard.

Oh take me back to the start.

I know me and I know that I could be really complicated at times. I wish I wasn't but I am. That's just how I am and because of that, I do appreciate those who could stand me. I notice how we're no longer like before. What happened to us? I guess this might all be my fault too. Honestly, I miss you, I really do. I know I could really annoy you at times and maybe I'm not the best for you. I don't know whether you're already tired with my attitude and I wish you would say something to me, maybe something I wanna hear? I just want to know if you're tired and you're leaving or if you know that I'm really complicated but that's okay for you because you love me anyway.

I miss that guy I knew that was always here for me. I miss that guy who sent me that "baby please don't go, if I wake up tomorrow will you still be here" text when I told him that I was going to boarding school. I miss the guy that I called on 5/6/11 after hours of crying because of family problems because I know that he'll make me smile somehow. I miss that guy that used to text me almost everyday at as early as 8:30 pm when we first knew each other. I miss that guy who was always worried if someone took me away from him;who once seem like he was really into me. That guy that asked me why's my name so cute. That guy that said "asal you tak cakap you pergi concert justin bieber?kalau tak dah lama I pergi" even when he had told me before that he dislike JB. That guy who I kicked at that cheer leading competition which was also the first time I've been there because I really wanted to meet him. That time when I langgar him and he was like "siot terkejut" which fyi was so cute. That time when I stepped on his awesome purple shoes, the way he looked at me and they way he held my hand. That guy who came all the way from Shah Alam to Kajang just to meet me. Yes, that guy who I really miss.

You know what? I don't ever want to give up on you and I'm sorry if I've ever hurt your feelings or did anything wrong. I really love you with all my heart froggymeowmeow. "yeah, I will always be by your side and support you whenever :D " remember this? I know I do, I'll always do.

yours truly,riri