look at me now.

Tuesday 27 May 2014

still you.

This is not another love story
where he gets her off guard
and she lets him in without a second thought
the way he decides to say words that for some reason
made complete sense at the moment
enough to have caught her heart.

He walked in but never made through
stuck in the middle, contemplating his next move
she never planned to but to keep her distance
she could've chose not to but she did instead
and opened the door to someone she has never met.

He casually just walks in thinking this is the same as everything else he has ever went through. Little did he know the girl he says hi to isn't the girl he once dated. She isn't the girl that would tell him how much she wants him around when really she needs him. She isn't the girl to tell him everything because she's done that before and it never worked out well. She's the girl that learned from her mistakes neglecting the fact that not every guy is the same, just because she was afraid to get left again. 

She's that girl that would try so hard and not let it look obvious just because she doesn't want him to find that she was "too much". She would let him be because she knows she could get over him as easily as she wants it to be but she never does, because she knows how it feels like to think you were loved and is left on efforts no longer there upon giving up so she hangs around and push herself a bit more to fix things, to hold on. She could be doing the same for just anyone not that there is even anyone else to do it for. Focused on what's there, she just wants it to stay there. 

She's not going to go out with you on social events she's not going to invite you to parties, she's not going to socialise with your clique, she's not going to try so hard to become someone else, those days are gone. You don't change her, she makes herself better. She only needs you because she makes herself need to, that is why she clings to you, that is why she puts you above her, not because she is weak or ever is she as easily broken. Know that she has been alone far more than you have, she can leave you and start new if she wanted to but she chose to choose you. 

It doesn't make her any better than you and she doesn't want it to; like a reminder for you to know where you stand and what she is capable of. Not of who is wiser or better, this is not about the ego or pride, this is simply to show how much she loves you and what she would do for you. And everyone or anyone she loves who she puts as a priority so don't you ever feel or assume her head being in her ass the day she met you. You aren't as magical as she believes and makes you. All to make you feel special, wanted, all because she loves you. She chose to let you in, for a chance she would never have gave to anyone at all, not even you. But somehow, miraculously, she still, chose you.

Out of all the people in the world, why you?
We might never know.
Though I do.

-riri-

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