It was never about how he left her for her.
Not that she was alright with him despite her.
Far from how both were joyous and not her.
It is how diligently and vigorously he fought back for someone he recently got to know over one who took so much effort to learn him. It is listening to him talk over you and about you with the intentions of having you realise that indeed you know nothing of the girl he is protecting as if he knows you enough to discern between what you are saying and what he perceives as you feeling, to be blurting such ignorance about the one he is shielding. With much vigilance he pays heed to every word said about her, more than he as ever in the times you converse over consequential issues between the both of you. It must be heartwarming to be the one loved more or so we believe. It's beautiful how head over heels he must have been and still is even so- it is not that still! You are unfamiliar of this stance taken, of this new found aggression. How much or rather how long, has he left you behind as he took the time to move on, to be the one to act out the way he does, making it clear that it no longer is you- how it has never been you, for far too long for you to have not noticed before or admit to. His intentions must have been pure oh so you make yourself believe, yet it is this heart that gets the playing and so what have it left you with if not the truth?
It has always been you.
Just you, and them,
as they are with the world,
as you are out of it.
-riri-
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